I don't feel a thing

I think the worst emotion is numb.
When the tears have all left you,
and you've nothing left to give.
I didn't eat yesterday.
Just couldn't bring myself to do it.
The ball of sadness in my stomach was enough to keep me full.
I drank so much last night.
I made myself sick.
I laughed and took drags of my cigarette
while the cute boy ran his hand on the small of my back,
all the while thinking of the way you used to touch me.
But I just smiled, asked another question, and took another drag.
I played along in the drinking games, and sang along with the songs.
I got sick when I came home.
I couldn't feel how drunk I was.
I think the worst emotion is numb.