I feel anxious today. It's starting to fade now. I told Amber this morning that I feel like I'm on the verge of something big, but I don't know what it is, and it's driving me nuts that I'm not there yet.
I think it might be the time for a little self discovery, and rebuilding. So that's what this is. THIS HERE: this paper, this marker, this sitting up studying and writing at four in the morning with Amber. This is my newsletter of self discovery, of knowing myself, knowing what's important to me, and what isn't; of knowing what I want; what poetry, what type of people I want to surround myself with; how I take my coffee, and whether that depends on my mood and the tone of the day. It's all going HERE, in this newsletter. To myself. To my friends, my future children (if I get there), to my nieces and nephews, to anyone now, or after me, whom it may help know me (truly know me), or maybe, just maybe, know themselves a little better through me.
THINGS I BELIEVE IN: (to be continued as they dawn on me)
Kiddie Cocktails- always have always will
Friendship as natural as the ones I have with a select few.
Making a wish (especially when candles are involved).
Playing on the boys' team.
Bubble Gum.
My Daddy- I think my dad is truly the most upstanding man of character on the face of this earth.
Being Crazy Enough to make life fun.
A little self-destruction every now and then.
Black and White.
Macaroni and Cheese.
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